Sometimes I believe I’m too kind for my own good…. but at some point the pain has to stop with somebody… and I believe God made me this way for that reason…
(via anditslove)
During the last few weeks I’ve been going through a roller coasters of emotions… and no emotions. I’m not bi-polar it’s just that certain things bring out certain emotions out of me. I have a lot on my plate right now, and I’m just trying to be positive. Me being hopeful, does not mean I’m happy, that everything is going to be ok, or that I have to act like I’m ok. When I’m sad, I’m sad. When I’m mad, I’m mad. Let me feel these emotions. I may not deserve what I’m going through, but that doesn’t mean I should push away the pain and sadness that I’m going through. I need to feel it in order to overcome it. As long as I don’t dwell on the pain or sadness for too long, I should be alright. What’s done is done. I can’t go back and change what I did, but I can be more cautious with what I will do in the future as to make this journey a smoother and less enjoyable ride.
I may not understand why I’m going through all of this and I may feel helpless and lost at times, but God wouldn’t make me face any obstacle he knew I couldn’t overcome…
It’s been a year since I last talked to you or even let alone seen you in person and somehow you managed to make your way into my dreams… Santi, you were my very first love. We spend three rough, but amazing years together. Our break up wasn’t bad but definitely could of gone better. Till this day, I can still say I love you. Not in a romantic type of way but just because of how great of a person you are.
Anyways back to my dream… The only thing I could remember about this dream was that I somehow ended up in your bedroom, laying next to your son, whom I was playing with. The most surprising thing about this dream is that when I was with your son, it was the first time I didn’t feel any sadness or pain. I felt happy. It was weird. I can’t explain it but it was nice. I hope that when the day comes and we happen to bump into each other, that we can talk not as strangers, but as friends. I don’t expect us to be buddy buddies, but… I don’t want things to be awkward. You are a wonderful son, an amazing father, and a great person in general. I know you’ll never read this, so I hope one day I’ll have the chance to remind you.
Overall, it was really good to see you and hear your voice again… even if it was just in my dreams….
LMAO - Laughing My As* Off
LOL - Laughing Out LoudAlso:
AFAIK =» As Far As I Know
AFK =» Away From Keyboard
ASAP =» As Soon As Possible
BAS =» Big A$$ Smile
BBL =» Be Back Later
BBN =» Bye Bye Now
BBS =» Be Back Soon
BEG =» Big Evil Grin
BF =» Boyfriend
BIBO =» Beer In, Beer Out
BRB =» Be Right Back
BTW =» By The Way
BWL =» Bursting With Laughter
C&G =» Chuckle and Grin
CICO =» Coffee In, Coffee Out
CID =» Crying In Disgrace
CNP =» Continued (in my) Next Post
CP =» Chat Post(a chat message)
CRBT =» Crying Real Big Tears
CSG =» Chuckle Snicker Grin
CYA =» See You (Seeya)
CYAL8R =» See You Later (Seeyalata)
DLTBBB =» Don’t Let The Bed Bugs Bite
EG =» Evil Grin
EMSG =» Email Message
FC =» Fingers Crossed
FTBOMH =» From The Bottom Of My Heart
FYI =» For Your Information
FWIW =» For What It’s Worth
GAL =» Get A Life
GF =» Girlfriend
GFN =» Gone For Now
GMBA =» Giggling My Butt Off
GMTA =» Great Minds Think Alike
GTSY =» Glad To See You
H&K =» Hug and Kiss
HABU =» Have A Better ‘Un
HAGN =» Have A Good Night
HAGU =» Have A Good ‘Un
HHIS =» Hanging Head in Shame
HUB =» Head Up Butt
IAE =» In Any Event
IC =» I See
IGP =» I Gotta Pee
IMNSHO =» In My Not So Humble Opinion
IMO =» In My Opinion
IMCO =» In My Considered Opinion
IMHO =» In My Humble Opinion
IOW =» In Other Words
IRL =» In Real Life
IWALU =» I Will Always Love You
JMO =» Just My Opinion
JTLYK =» Just To Let You Know
KIT =» Keep In Touch
KOC =» Kiss On Cheek
KOL =» Kiss On Lips
L8R =» Later
L8R G8R =» Later ‘Gater
LHM =» Lord Help Me
LHO =» Laughing Head Off
LHU =» Lord Help Us
LMAO =» Laughing My A$$ Off
LMSO =» Laughing My Socks Off
LOL =» Laugh Out Loud
LSHMBB =» Laughing So Hard My Belly is Bouncing
LSHMBH =» Laughing So Hard My Belly Hurts
LSHTTARDML =» Laughing So Hard The Tears Are Running Down My Leg
LTNS =» Long Time No See
LTS =» Laughing To Self
LUWAMH =» Love You With All My Heart
LY =» Love Ya
MTF =» More To Follow
NRN =» No Reply Necessary
NADT =» Not A Darn Thing
OIC =» Oh, I See
OL =» Old Lady (significant other)
OM =» Old Man (significant other)
OTOH =» On The Other Hand
OTTOMH =» Off The Top of My Head
PDS =» Please Don’t Shoot
PITA =» Pain In The A$$
PM =» Private Message
PMFJI =» Pardon Me For Jumping In
PMP =» Peed My Pants
POAHF =» Put On A Happy Face
QSL =» Reply
QSO =» Conversation
QT =» Cutie
ROFL =» Rolling On Floor Laughing
ROFLAPMP =» ROFL And Peeing My Pants
ROFLMAO =» ROFL My A$$ Off
ROFLMAOAY =» ROFLMAO At You
ROFLMAOWTIME =» ROFLMAO With Tears In My Eyes
ROFLUTSROFL =» Unable to Speak
RTFM =» Read The F****** Manual!
SETE =» Smiling Ear To Ear
SHID =» Slaps Head In Disgust
SNERT =» Snot-Nosed Egotistical Rude Teenager
SO =» Significant Other
SOT =» Short Of Time
SOTMG =» Short Of Time Must Go
SWAK =» Sealed With A Kiss
SWAS =» Scientific Wild A$$ Guess
SWL =» Screaming with Laughter
SYS =» See You Soon
TA =» Thanks Again
TGIF =» Thank God It’s Friday
TCOY =» Take Care Of Yourself
TILII =» Tell It Like It Is
TNT =» Till Next Time
TOY =» Thinking Of You
TTFN =» Ta Ta For Now
TTYL =» Talk To You Later
WAS =» Wild A$$ Guess
WB =» Welcome Back
WTH =» What/Who The Heck (or sub an ‘F’ for the ‘H’)
YBS =» You’ll Be Sorry
YG =» Young Gentleman
YL =» Young Lady
YM =» Young Man
Damn.. didn’t know there was so many!
(via everything-inspiring)
02.16.12 ♥ 13312
